Mike borrowed some girl's car and the 2 of us took I-86 from Columbus, Ohio to Cornell University - listening to Led Zeppelin the whole way - Kashmir - Mike turned the stereo up to 11 and, laughing, he pulled up his shirt to show me his beer belly from our first semester - freshman year - we were both looking at his gut and laughing - the car started drifting off the interstate towards the divider - Mike yanked the wheel into place before we hit it - he had this big love laced plan to take me away on a long weekend to get me clean - this i was not aware of - i chewed fruit stripe gum by the pack until we finally arrived. i remember feeling filthy but not for moral reasons - i remember scamming a hundred bucks off Mike and disappearing for awhile - i remember having three pairs of feet and trying to get up the stairs - i remember trying to sleep and hearing Mike say he had "the worst night of his life." i wonder if i ever left, i wonder if it's 1991 - am i 17 and remorseless - still listening to Led Zeppelin - i wonder if keep typing i will walk into that movie theater on sandusky street - the one that showed The Wall all year round - the kids in the seats traded cigarettes for twizzlers and we never have leave